Sunday, December 16, 2007

It's Just Too Much!



- 2nd Annual Christmas Cocktail Party

- Holidays

- Dad gone for almost 20 years

- Emotional upheaval attributable to relationships


The last on that list is the biggest of all. It's still sinking in. I really can't believe it. I feel like it's been nearly a 2-year effort to find the right place to go, and it happened so fast, and then all of a sudden, I'm given the opportunity to go to a great place. I wish the other people at the Clock had good places to go. I wish it wasn't all falling apart and there wasn't so much emotional wreckage. It really was so unpredictably emotional. I've never cried so much in front of people I work with! But I guess that's what it is -- they are more than just people I work with. God, this sounds so unnecessarily melodramatic. I am right now looking forward to spending time with people I love; going on vacation in a warm, sunny place; reconnecting with people from my professional past; and gearing up for the next phase. It still doesn't feel real, and still feels like it will be taken from me. It's so scary thinking about having to start a new place and earn people's trust and establish myself. Scarier more to think about trying to move towards whatever it is that I ultimately want. That is the hardest part -- knowing what you want out of your career and your life.

Not feeling too deep right now. Here are a couple of pictures -- the spread from my party (goddammit, my camera was broken!) and people at the Clock celebrating.


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